Something’s are just not meant to be
You just have to ignore the things that bring you down and focus on the things that make you happy. And avoid putting yourself in situations that will cause you unhappiness as much as possible. Boys won't bring you happiness. Don't invest all your feelings in one person. Especially when the majority of boys don't care the way you do. Good luck Travis. Be happy always.
I hope that between work, school, friends, and family, you have found some time to spend on yourself. I know it's exhausting caring about everyone and everything else. When you feel like you're losing control and running out of energy to go on, remember that your happiness takes priority. You cannot expect to make others happy if you aren't happy with yourself. You are an amazing person with a pure heart.